Being alive - feeling good!

Finding one's voice in the wilderness can be difficult and suppressed by one's own imagination and mind.  I am offering to others to what I wrote to my activists friends who I feel were responding to what is going on around us.  The words I offer are in love and in the tradition of claiming my role as a deacon within my faith tradition.

I too want to thank the posters / cross posters.   I have edited this on the evening that I heard Danny Michel - sing Maybe You Can Find it in Your Heart.

http://www.dannymichel.com/newsite/welcome.html 

I can declare that where humanity is today - in the midst of a huge reorganization on many institutional and confines of the contexts - ways of living -  based on the human desire of the old ways to live beyond a scarcity mind set on consuming more.  Such current narrative being promoted by those with the most is falling apart.  The ancient seven wonders of the world remind us of civilizations that have disappeared.  Our current one - is like the one described by Ishmael - in Herman Melville's tome - Moby Dick.  We are on the Pequod - together sailing towards our end at the bottom of the seas of time.

http://youtu.be/6Ugkain3QUg    Danny's song Feather Fur and Fin


Such knowledge and information can very easily effect our moods and ultimately take us into the darker places where we find ourselves living.   Such moods include - Dispair - Resignation - Cynicism - immobility - victimization - blame - resentment - anger and fear.   What has happened and is happening will continue to happen. We too will experience the impacts as are all other life forms on Mother Earth.  Coming to the realization and acceptance of what is and how we chose to respond to what happens to us is a powerful skill to become who we intend to be.   If we continue to operate out of the behaviors we have come to use based on the old story we create to explain ourselves to the universe we will get stuck in the mud of the lakes where the water has disappeared.  When I am given the choice to respond to a situation - I can choose a different response and choose to live in a different mood.   This is the activist dance that then goes on in our mind.

I offer that I have found myself in exagerrated cycnicism and sarcasm - but if I can stand up turn around from looking backwards to looking forward in inspiration of a vision using my creativity to live fully alive with what I have - around me and by working together as citizens of earth we can support each  other, including our enemies.   By taking out of our vocabulary the word "enemies" - replacing it with "the friends I do not yet know and appreciate" I can change my being.


If I declare I do not like being a victim and take responsibilty for where I / we are together we can create  options and actions - including civil disobedience - to invite others to do the same and to invite the powerful to engage in dialogue.  Such when we sing and dance together our hearts and minds can be changed.


If I can get forego the resentment - anger - self pity and all the energy it requires sitting in such space, transformation can happen.   I can allow acceptance of what has happened and what is happening may continue. It is what it is.  I can turn into the realization and responsibility that I have the power within myself and along with the community to make a difference.   Accepting such I can be the person I am destined to become as I can be.


If I let go of the moods of resignation - and use the energy that is currently immobilizing in such situation - and convert it to ambition to do and stand and walk on the path of an aliveness and sense of healing and vitality.

I have recently returned from a program called "returning to Spirit" which gave me the tools and path towards empowerment. Why does it take me fifty years to become "When I'm you" especially to find the happiness that comes with letting go of the imagined person I thought I was.  Now I can be the you I really am.  I have experienced finding "the spark in my heart."  I was lost in times old ways!!!!!

http://www.returningtospirit.org


Such work included getting in touch with the basic core belief I held unconciously for most of my life. The lie perpetuated was; I am not important!!


The behaviors and patterns I used to support and grow my "concept story" were when I was in the four ugly moods - were exagerrated cycnicism / sarcasm and inserting my story and my crap into the conversations. Persons were unable to hear or listen as I suspect they became tired of my "incessant wisdom and need to explain" such as I am doing now.


Our mind and our behaviors when we do the dance of moods I described above for me was that I could not pay attention or hear others. I was self absorbed and often isolated and withdrew from being fully alive. I dare say a form of depression - and would by others be described as "mentally ill" which is a term often used by the powerful to discredit anyone who could not dance the power and oppression dance - of the delusion they invite and encourage us to live.


So I offer my weekly "sparrow speak" - chirping my voice to the universe - because it is now out there and as James Brown sings "I Feel Good!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SzlpTRNIAvc&noredirect=1

so good -


bruce

P.S.  Thanks Danny for your insights and music to wake up the nations.  Bob Marley likes it !!

Abram - Mary - Martha - Spiritual awakening

I must pay attention to the strangers who arrive in our midst especially when I find myself sitting under a tree in the desert. Like Abram, when I perceive the 3 strangers coming toward me, it is better that I welcome them and call for the celebratory banquet of welcome and sacrifice - the giving up of something in expectation of something to be better in future.

Perhaps as I prepare myself for the journey to follow the wandering Aramean where the holy mystery leads, I look forward to the spiritual direction course and further discernment of call. I yearn to be like Mary and sit at the feet of the teacher and allow the wisdom to emerge. Is such wisdom already there, and do I only need to let it come out like a doe and her fawns who wait by the water's edge to safely drink at the lakeshore? Can I give up my busyness - and distractions like Martha with all my attendent duties and obligations that I have entwined myself in as a result of my covenant and promise to settle amongst the people of the whispering hills?

Why is it when we want someone else to do something we ask Jesus or some other authority figure to do our asking for us. As I am discovering the idea of being triangled into someone else's issue is never comfortable for all involved. Why do we hesitate to ask directly? Fear of rejection - fear of not being listened to? Is the deeper fear of abandonment and how such request for them to join in what we believe is our duty or obligation somehow tied to our worthiness and acceptance?

When the holy angels or agents of the divine appear, how do we respond? Do we deny and ignore - so we do not allow ourselves to be hurt again by relationships gone wrong and hang onto the special intended lamb for the future that will not really sustain us or may never come? Do we let go - call for the celebration and in return be given the promise of a new birth - and Isaac the one who laughs in our midst in the near future? Such is faith - trusting in risking and welcoming and offerring hospitality?

Can a faith community become such a place of welcome - that in the days to come we will give up like a new parent the self-centered narcissitic life realizing our responsibility to the next generation and our brothers and sisters who dwell with us on spaceship earth? Will we give up our need to be voyeurs on the pain and sufferring of those who are not in our over-privileged status that we believe has been endowed upon us by reason of our intelligence and hard work and actually befriend them as holy guests? (one might consider a case for delusional living) and recognize the need for treatment and healing).

What will be your response to the visitors? Will you seek the spiritual dimension of eternal life and wholeness - sharing the banquet of life with all? Or remain distracted by duty and obligation imposed on us by the pharoahs and our own unconcious behaviors that lead to the abyss rather than life in all its glory, struggle and resurrection into the ever-birthing options that the holy - mid-wife births us into!!